Selfish

A lot of people say that committing suicide is a selfish act; "You punish those around you for your own benefits." Really? You think that suicide is selfish? You think it's horrible? You think it's a sin? You know what's horrible? Making someone feel so incredibly awful that they want to take their own life. Suicide is the last resort. And it's so tempting. You have no clue what their life is like. You have no clue what they've been through. You have no right to tell them they're being selfish. You have no right to mourn their death when you never even gave a shit about their life. I don't like it, I don't condone it, I will always be there for anyone who needs someone, but that doesn't mean that I don't get it. Because oh ho do I get it. Feeling worthless, feeling undesirable, lifeless, having no purpose, every dream of yours gets crushed one right after another, and no matter what you do, no matter how happy you try to be, because you try so hard to be happy, happiness never comes, nothing comes. And in that moment, you feel that you have no choice. You have to kill yourself.